Sunday, November 05, 2006
2:30 PM Y
Post title : =hurt deep inside=
♥ You'll never know the real me.
hurt.thatz all im feeling 4 d past few days.m i stupid?mi useless?does ma tears meant nothing to u?y did u critisize me?y did u put me down?y must u hurt me with d words that u say?i tot u were ma support.i tot u cld help me and help me up when i fall.but i was wrong.i tot u were proud of me.but ure not.i may have faults.i may not be perfect.but that doesnt give u d right 2 judge me,just by looking at ma mistakes.i am who i am.i cant take it.d 1 that i depend on,is d 1 2 put me down.i can forgive.but i cant forget.im sorry.4 blaming u 4 everything that i cldnt do.n ive hurt maself.mayb im d cause when u said all tat u said.mayb wat u sae is true."kenapa harusku bercinta,kenapa ku begini?kenapa harus ku merayu?kenapa ku percaya?kenapa harus ku dikecewakan?kenapa harus ku diperbodohkan kasih?engkau punca segala kepedihan dihatitak ingin ku melihat wajahmu dihadapanku"he thought that maybe ive forgotten everything.but i didnt.im hurt.till now.at this very moment.n he's out.having fun.its ok.im sick aniwae.it dun matter that he dun care that im sick.i can take care of maself.there goes a saying,'' i'll be there whenever you nid me be it in d middle of the nite ''but its not true.cuz sumtimes sleep is more impt.i cant deny that i love him.so much.too much.i guess its true,that when u love sum1 2 much it hurts.i want so much 2 tell u how i feel.but everytime i do,u wld be angry at me in d end.ure d 1 who pushed me away.ure d 1 who made me change.ure d reason y im crying everyday.u dun have 2 bother,cuz i dont.
