Friday, March 31, 2006
3:57 PM Y
Post title : hAppY hAppY dAE!!!
♥ You'll never know the real me.
ya..so 2dae was a pretty cool dae..slept until 4pm then wake up bath n go 2 werk...werkin was great 2dae...haha...gt 1 great lookin guy in PH..took his order...was with his friend...drg ajak aku mkn skali..lol..wth...the guy kept askin 4 mi sia..but i kept ma cool..mcm phm jek...haha...actually it all doesnt bother me tat much..mcm bdk pri pulak nak go gugugaga over some guy who is like sooo hot..
then gt a group of angmohs..
they sae i gt a beautuful smile!!
lol..
mcm bangga gi2 kan...
banyak org uh puji aku niari..
*smiles*
*next stop kembangan*
only ma poly mates understand tat line..
lol..
watever la...
actually all this small2 things are d things tat can make ur day....
but at d end of d dae,
every sadness tat u hide frm the world will emerge when u're alone..
in your room...
waiting 4 something..
that you noe will not come no matter wat...
tatz SAD!!
nvm..
juz take things slow..
one at a time...
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
8:32 PM Y
Post title : Flashback
♥ You'll never know the real me.
itz like 4.30am n i still havent slp...im like thinkin abt him...n i cnt slp..haiz..
6:11 PM Y
Post title : sad
♥ You'll never know the real me.
went out with naz...had an ok2 dae...he's nice...nice bike...too bad...not my type..haiz...he is like so into me...but im not..on his bike i was like thinkin abt amru which was totally not cool of me to do tat..but wth...naz was speeding all d wae..i was like,"I hope he wont let this be ma last day..."i shouted 4 him 2 slow down...wanted to kill him sia...tatz y i was thinkin abt amru..cuz amru dun speed...haiz...i did sumtin yest..i told HIM off...haiz..y did i do that?-->no idea<--*sad face*i juz wanna HIM to 4get me...y?-->no idea<--shld i regret it??...-->no idea<--desperate times calls for deaperate measures..does it hurts?..-->of course<--m i like talkin to maself?-->like *duh*<--while typing all this i like suddenly think abt ma ex...haiz...how he used to sing to me every nyte b4 i go to slp...d song is by peterpan:semua tentang kita..im like so missing it...movin on...----------> i Miss HIM <---------------
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
8:35 PM Y
Post title : AttItUdE..
♥ You'll never know the real me.
--> THe pEoPLe AsKeD Me hOw i'vE LiVeD Till NoW I TeLL ThEm i dOn't kNoW I GuEsS ThEy uNdErStAnD, hOw lOneLy lIfE HaS BeEn. BuT LiFe bEgAn aGaIn.. ThE DaE YoU tOoK My HaNd. AnD YeS,I KnOw hOw LoNeLy LiFe cAn bE, tHe sHaDoW FoLlOwEd mE. AnD ThE NyTeZ WoN'T SeT Me fRee BuT I DoNT LeT tHe eVeNiNg gEt mE DoWn NOw tHaT YoU'Re aRoUnD Me AnD YoU LoVeD Me tOO yOu'rE ThOuGhTs aRe jUsT FoR ME.. yOu sEt mY SpIrItS FrEe I'M HaPpY ThAt yOu dO tHe BoOk oF LiFe iS BrIeF aNd oNcE ThE PaGe iS rEaD aLL bUt lOvE Is dEad ThAt is mY BeLiEf.... <--yah so the dae begins like normal...go werk...late by 1 hour..haha....all d conflicts happening at PH is reali getting out of hand sia..all d attitudes tat the people involved had...i wld rather not be involved but in someway i am cuz im there sia..when things happen im always there..nasib im nt d culprit or victim...to those who know d story,all i can sae is that the truth will come out in the end...dun b afraid if ur not in d wrong..time will tell..other than that everything is like normal la...naz contact with me back...marzuqie oso..dua2 ckp sal aku drg patah hati..mcm phm..im like lazy to think abt anitin animore..all i noe is i will juz go with d flow...HE lied sia...do think i care????watever!i miss ma poly friends sia...-->ain belo-->nurul-->ema-->aishaand saper2 that i hung out with in sch...*hugs*
Monday, March 27, 2006
7:53 PM Y
Post title : the perfect day...
♥ You'll never know the real me.
i feel so happy 2dae......
it was like d perfect dae 4 me yest....
lets me story from d begining...
supposed 2 mit Amru at d cntrl stn at 2.30pm....
i reach there arnd 2.45pm n he is not even there..lol..
*screams*
so i waited 4 him with Adam accompaning me thru d phone...
Amru reach at about 3.10pm...
supposed 2 b angry at him but cant la cuz he is like so cute....
he called me n tell mi tat he's late cuz he watched this rosyam nor's drama n tatz y he's late..
mcm cute kan...hahaha...
then kiter naik motor g eat at geylang at hajah maimunah's...
d food was good...haha...
n cheap...*duh*...lol...
Amru made me choose since he cant make up his mind...
*laughs*
while eating we take pictures..lol...
then we talk cock...
pure shit...hahahaha...
the we go east coast...
fun sia.....
n we took lotsa pics......
we sit n talk cock again...
n i noe ur weak spot Amru..haha...
we like kutok alot of people..haha...
N d indian lady is Amru's fav..
then go sight-seeing at geylang...
opened up ma eyes to alot of things..
like prostitutes....
how they earn their living and all that...
gt to noe lotsa hotels with d same name like fragrance hotel gt lotsa names...
but i dun rem anithing..lol...
too baD...
then go esplanade....
sit n talk.....
njoy d nite wind....
Look in each others eyes..
haha..da mcm drama romantic sia..
but yah...
he taught me lotsa things..
opened me up to a whole different world..
showed me things tat i din noe b4..
taught me how to always thing positive...
taught me sumtin abt d ship thingy....
wat each light stands for...
like red,yellow,green...
hmmmm..........
gave me a massage..
feel good man..
but geli sia...lol...
*roll my eyes big2*
haha..so overall i totally enjoyed the day..
hahaha....thks k Amru...!
aniwaes,back to reality...
REALITY CHECK!!
HE is so different towards mi now sia...
its like HE is so sarcastic with mi abt how many guy friends i have..
i dun noe wat HE wants me to do sia...
HE is acting like he dun even care abt me sia...
n it is such a turn off 2 me..
how can HE expect me to always b d 1st 2 do eveything..??*arrgghhh*
.....juz wish HE could understand how i feel..
But i guess i have to juz forget it..
since HE dun care...
n HE acts like shit towards me..
dun even wanna msg or anitin...
always judging people..
eventhough HE dun noe anitin..
juz saying everything OR anitin to make himself feel satisfied..
n tat watever happens wOnt b his fault...
hah!!!
AND call mi only if HE like need or want sumtin...
i wonder y i cared so much since there r other guys ..much better guys...
WTH..
WTF...
HE is a nice guy..
seriously...
but i guess there r just some faults in everybody...
....*sigh loud2*
4:53 AM Y
Post title : disillusion
♥ You'll never know the real me.
hahaha..life2... yeaterdae go out with fendi,jannah,y,acil,is and remy..juz go lepak only..padahal fendi said he wanna go out with me...i guess he have no mood since he gt 2 noe d gal tat he loved so much is now attached...haiz...so im like juz there 4 nothing since he din talk to me...only IS n Y talk 2 mi...n entertain mi..jannah with her bf,remy.seriously im mad la that he wld do this but wth..im juz his friend..cant sae anitin much..when i gt hm i din msg him...juz dun feel like it...i juz feel like he is using me?ntah la eh....amru oso said that mayb he juz dun wanna b serious since he cant 4get his old flame n move on...watever la..im like goin out with amru again 2dae...dun noe go where...juz noe that i have no mood 2 go to werk..lol...f**k la with d management..
Saturday, March 25, 2006
8:30 PM Y
Post title :
♥ You'll never know the real me.
WeLcOmE To mY LiFe-->Do you ever feel like breaking down?Do you ever feel out of place?Like somehow you just don't belongAnd no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?Do you lock yourself in your room?With the radio on turned up so loudAnd no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's likeWhen nothing feels alrightYou don't know what it's likeTo be like me...
To be hurt, to feel lostTo be left out in the darkTo be kicked when you're downTo feel like you've been pushed aroundTo be on the edge of breaking downAnd no one's there to save youNo you don't know what it's likeWelcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?Are you sick of feeling so left out?Are you desperate to find something moreBefore your life is over?
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?Are you sick of everyone around?With the big fake smiles and stupid liesWhile deep inside your bleeding
No you don't know what it's likeWhen nothing feels alrightYou don't know what it's likeTo be like me...
To be hurt, to feel lostTo be left out in the darkTo be kicked when you're downTo feel like you've been pushed aroundTo be on the edge of breaking downAnd no one's there to save youNo you don't know what it's likeWelcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your faceNo one ever stabbed you in the backYou might think I'm happyBut I'm not gonna be okEverybody always gave you what you wantedYou never had to workIt was always thereYou don't know what it's likeWhat it's like
To be hurt, to feel lostTo be left out in the darkTo be kicked when you're downTo feel like you've been pushed aroundTo be on the edge of breaking downAnd no one's there to save youNo you don't know what it's likeTo be hurt, to feel lostTo be left out in the darkTo be kicked when you're downTo feel like you've been pushed aroundTo be on the edge of breaking downAnd no one's there to save youNo you don't know what it's likeWelcome to my lifeWelcome to my lifeWelcome to my life
i wonder y pple dun understand that if u like sumone u hafta tell that person so that d person wont b left hanging...how do u expect d other party to know how u feel when u dun tel??...arrgghh!!i juz hate ma life rite nw...nasib baik ader AMRU who like call mi every nite n mepek with me..lol
-->please don't be so egoistic <--
Friday, March 24, 2006
9:03 PM Y
Post title : moving on...
♥ You'll never know the real me.
2Dae gt mizunderstandin with fendi AGAIN...haiz..i dun even noe y wat we were arguing abt sia...alih2 jek seh..then he sae tat 2dae will b d last dae tat we talk..i was like,"wat??r u 4 real??".....i dun noe wat 2 sae la..he means a lot 2 me..he helped me n lot n 4 other reasons that i cant sae in public...i uz wanna him 2 understand tat i do care abt him no matter wat...yes i lied to him b4...n i noe itz hard 4 him 2 forgive...4 all d wrongs tat i do..but he did 4give mi..n im glad..nw i wanna things to get back to d wae it shld b...haiz...talk to this guy name halim...met him at pizza hut juz now...fun 2 talk to him..put down with him arnd 2am cuz amru called...haha..talkin abt amru..he mepek alot 2dae sia...since im like changin ma blogskin n all takes alot of time so he juz like talk to himself all d wae...haha..sampai bbl sal bird flu siak...lol...then he sae d meaning of blog is,"buah longlai org giler!!"hahaha...mepek 2 d max sia....seriously amru is damn funny n open..shld go spa with him one dae..(kan amru??u noe i noe la eh amru...)haha...then put down with him cuz he tired then halim called me again...then put down cuz i cant cncentrate sia...haha...nw itz like near to 6am...hhaa...i like wanna go slp liao...
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
4:36 PM Y
Post title : gotten over him...
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Learning to get over thingz...fendi help mi a whole bunch....but we always have misunderstanding....
haiz..sumtimes i juz dun understand...how can he sae i dun care?....
i waited 4 his call..
everyday...
everynite..
msg him everydae..
mcm gi2 die ckp kiter tak kisah..
haiz..
letz talk abt amru..
hehe...
he veRRRRy nice...
haha...
brought mi out...
veRRRy happening..
watch "underworld revolution"..
but b4 that we go sit at starbucks...
drink like rich people..
haha..
Seblom tgk movie, kiter nak li nachos tau..
then da beli,then waitress ckp "ketchup or chilli"..
then amru sae chilli..
i was like "WAT???"
Padahal d waitress wasnt talkin to him...
hahaha
lol..
aft d movie we go eat at md sultan
mkn pizza n spagetti...
full 2 d max siak..
hhahaa...
THEN GO TAKE PICS...
(ps:amru i want d photos..!!)
talk 2 him..
mepek with him...
felt veRRRy comfortable with him...
*smiles*
then go home..
on his bike..
now i feel ok2 la naik motor..
amru yg ajar..
haha..
motor die big big big!!!
haha
lawa...
mcm me!!
hahaha..
i had fun la with him...
amru help me forget abt ma ex..
juz like he said he will..
im glad he help mi forget...
even for 1 dae...
take a step at a time...
Sunday, March 12, 2006
4:20 AM Y
Post title : Sadness overloaded
♥ You'll never know the real me.
i will not make d mistake again..
haiz..
for him 2 cum back,i dun noe..
now i wldnt want him back cuz i shld move on...
amru's helping me moving on...
fendi too..
haiz..
lied to fendi too..
hope he forgive me sia cuz i seriously dun mean it..
i lied cuz i wanna get close to him..
ya stupid as it may sound but i did it..
i noe itz hard 4 fendi or ijal 2 forgive me...
haiz..
life...
Friday, March 10, 2006
4:00 PM Y
Post title : memories
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Sweet Memories...*All this r memories that r better left forgotten..memories that hurtz too much 2 even think abt it...
yes itz ma mistake..
i went clubbin n drank n watsoever..
he found out abt it..
he hates it..
he left me...
haiz..
cant reali blame him..
itz ma fault..
so now im like goin thru everything alone...
all ma friends dun care cuz they noe itz ma fault..
2 them HE wont make mistakes..
HE is perfect..
watever..
he LIED 2 me too..
haiz..
A lot of this happened that i dun noe where to start..
im sick of everything...
sick of tellin people..
sick of explaining...
wat they wanna think..
up 2 them..
on d 6th is supposed 2 b our 1st mth..ya hard 2 believe..itz only our 1st mth but its hard 4 me to forget...cuz im d 1 who made d mistake..he left mi on tat dae too..
haiz...*sad smiles*
Monday, March 06, 2006
9:47 PM Y
Post title : happening!!
♥ You'll never know the real me.
im like sooo bad nowadaes..
went clubbing with jannah and all...
go to desire..
had fun like *toot*..
then mabok..
then go sentosa...
then go....hmm....sumwhr la..
then go home..
so basically had fun...
nak story panjang sgt...
all i noe i in d daes tat i overnite i was close with fendi..
n i felt comfortable with him...
as a friend la..
duh..
pictos-->
jannah,me n yana
jannah and me
