Saturday, September 30, 2006
4:35 AM Y
Post title : =BrOkEn pRoMiiSeS=
♥ You'll never know the real me.
I dun care..How can he just break our promise just like that?When his frenz nvr ask him out, he will tell me that he wld not go out with his frens UNLESS im there with him....When his frenz ask him out, he will automatically forget what he says..N when i remind him, he will sae "da lame seh i tak jumpe drg....blah3"I din even go out with ma frenz..even when they ask me i will not go..cuz i already promised him..damn it!why can i kip ma fucking promise n he cant?cabot sembhg??jumpe kwn??k good.he WAS supposed to mit me later in d evening..but just forget it..da lame kan tak jumpe kwn..then i give him d whole day 2 spent with his frens...i will go out with mine!he can mit me what if he wanna cabot...but NO....he mit me everydae liao..da boring pe...2 pasal rela jumpe kwn..ok. Fuck with d relationship la!Fuck with watever i wrote in d last posting!Fuck what he said with he will do anything just to make me happy!i hate promises la!!!!!!!!why isit that i try so hard n when it comes to him it doesnt matter??WHY??M i making small issues big?I simply dun care!I hate it when he break his promise!!!!he can even kip a simple promise!!!so HOW CAN I TRUST HIM??One day if i break all ma promises towards him,Then he will feel what i feel..He take it for granted that i wldnt do aniting...dun try me la...i setia pasal i syg u..i simpan janji i pasal i syg u..i takot kehilangan u pasal i syg u..How can u say u try to understand?ive been trying to explain to you almost everyday in our BORING conversation on d phone...nevermind...its ok...maybe im just sum1 that he only wanna make use of..or maybe it just for past time...watever it is...=You can show me that you care.. if you dont then let it be.. i will just be your puppet=
Thursday, September 28, 2006
1:14 PM Y
Post title : TrUsT...?
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Do we really trust the person we love?Can we really be patient with them?Does understanding each other helps to hold the relationship together?Little does he know that i myself try to be patient with him at times..Little does he know of my efford to make this relationship last long..arrgghhh..Im tired..Do this new blog n everything...I wanna hug him eventhough im like a lil'pissed at him..Im sorry cuz i deleted wat was not my right..Im sorry.Period.
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
1:05 PM Y
Post title : blessed with love..
♥ You'll never know the real me.
This is Seri and Shamil...
This is whom i want to be associated with..
Who i wanna be with every single day of ma life...
Sometimes when im not in ma rite mind,
i wld often wonder if he will ever play bhind ma back..
when he dun call me,
my mind wander...
sometimes it makes me believe that he will really go away...
it makes me mad..
makes me cry..
makes me fil insecure n unsure..
i wanna make him understand..
i want him 2 know what im feeling...
=<
but sometimes..
it just doesnt happen..
but all i noe is that i always wanna be his.
period.
Sunday, September 24, 2006
11:03 AM Y
Post title : understanding
♥ You'll never know the real me.
thkz dear..
for being so understanding yesterday...
full story:
wake up..
bath..
hadta wait 4 him 2 come by ma place n go to court together..
told him 2 cum at 2.30pm but ended up he came at 3pm..
was pissed cuz court was at 3.45pm..
nvm..
was ma 1st day..
menstrual cramp like f**k..
court was like shit..
but close case oreadi..
started to get all pissy n grumpy..
but he still layan me so nice n all..
then went to bugis...
tak jadi gi kampung glam...
we ate kfc..
halfway ma cramp strted to get worse..
*screams*
then i was answering back so rudely to him...
he still take it in his stride..
being so patient with me..
watch miami vice 4 half n hour n i wanted to go home..
cannot tahan liao...
arrgghhh...
he called ma mummy 4 me n everything..
he tried to make me feel better....
we went home leaving the movie halfway...
taking the taxi....
i lie on his lap..
was so nice..
i love him so much la..
da smp umah..
ma cramp was like vanish,...
duh.
he is still being nice..
then we went to cwp..
met Dan, Anis n all..
eat at PH...
quarrel with hada cuz izal gave us free curry zazzle..
rizal kene buang keje..
haiz..
so i found out ma bf was actually very patient with me..
i was so grupy n all..
hehe..
sayang u!!!!
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
3:35 AM Y
Post title : what hurts the most..
♥ You'll never know the real me.
no more school fer me..can i really go on?..everybody i know was so proud when i entered poly..now ive let them down..especially ma parents..i can c how down n disappointed they were...its all ma fault..i regreted it a lil too late..i hurt ma pride..ma ego..maself..ma parents..ma bf...ma siblings..now i have really lost ma self-confidence..the day i found out i was not schling animore n then had a big fite with HIM,i just broke down in the middle of the road in the middle of the nite..nowadays..every single thing that pple say to me that doesnt seem rite 2 me can make me angry..i think ma bf can b the witness...i cant help it..i feel so useless...that pple wld leave me becuz i was so stupid..i can pretend..but at the end of the day..im still trying to get over the fact that im nt schling animore..trying to assure maself that i can make it...trying to make maself understand...how can i make other pple understand how i feel..if i maself cant understand?should i just run away..?or face all that i have to?sometimes its just easier to run...ps:happy birthday to ain n aisha.. i din forget... i hope u guys understand.. *hugs*
