Friday, April 21, 2006
11:00 AM Y
Post title :
♥ You'll never know the real me.
ma mood sux 2dae..
haiz..
cant believe i like raised ma voice at azri..
damn...
im like so sorry 4 tat azri..
im just not in d mood..
mayb itz cuz i juz wake up frm slp..
wth.
i nid a new bf.can?
lol...
tatz d stupidest q i can ever ask..
im so in love with him la...
just dun noe how 2 tell him..
haiz...
Thursday, April 20, 2006
1:50 PM Y
Post title :
♥ You'll never know the real me.
normal day in sch..abit bored...not enuf slp...dun noe wat 2 sae..meet ijal yest..kissed me..wth...doesnt matter..lepak with aisha n han yest at civic...yana was there too..oh well...i hate fallin 4 sum1 la rite now..scared...haiz..but i am...im like tryin 2 avoid it but cnt..lol..aku kene panggil ppm sundal juz cuz i gt lotsa guy frenz..im single sia..isit wrong to go out woth diff guy..n ya mon plz eh..mcm ko 2 setia sgt kat matair ko...jgn tag la lau u gt nothing good to say..pissed off sia..wth
Monday, April 17, 2006
3:22 PM Y
Post title : crush
♥ You'll never know the real me.
im like so d lazy 2 update..
juz d outline..
went out with aisha,yoda n azri on fri...
da la si yoda n azri lmbt...
azri lmbt 1 hr lak 2...
lol..
then c movie..
"triston n isolde"...
had fun sia...
lol..
then on sat ...
met azri again..
c movie again..
"black night"
scary sia..
but i felt comfortable la...
cuz....
lol..
4 me 2 noe..
4 all of u 2 find out..
lol...
cute sia azri..
then 2dae c movie again with aisha n her cuz..
"take the lead"
lol..
fun oso...
then go shoppin..
haha...
then eat at mac civic..
da lame tak trn..
rindu ..
mcm phm..
da la..
bsk sch...
i miss HIM sia
damn it
Friday, April 14, 2006
6:56 PM Y
Post title :
♥ You'll never know the real me.
went out with amru n aisha..go town...bored...haiz..no comments..went to aisha hse yest n juz hung arnd..lol..then 2dae juz rest at home..din even go out..amru seems abit diff...i noe he's pissed tat aisha followed us out but wat can i do..haiz..he called me juz now ,.but d way he talks seems abit rude..or watever..its like so diff n weird if u think abt how this world go round..some may think diff abt u..some may juz hate u..n some may just love u...some may sae ur pretty..some may sae ur not.all this depends on each individual..so i like learned not 2 believe wat pple sae 100%..so y m i talkin abt this?no idea..lol..
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
7:01 PM Y
Post title :
♥ You'll never know the real me.
yest hang arnd we maya n ayu..lepak smp mendak n very d lapar..then mit maya frenz..then i mit aisha n go aisha hse...then mit toppa,naq and shasha..talked abt lotsa things...things tat i nvr expected..tat ma friends wld backstabbed me..oh well..it doesnt matter aniwae...4 me i juz heck care n move on...tak pening kepala...lol...2dae mit amru again..dun noe go whr..lol..best nyer....*smiles*
Friday, April 07, 2006
10:06 PM Y
Post title : early morning
♥ You'll never know the real me.
itz early in d morning..
went out with maya,yani n mon...
go town...
walk at bugis n everything..
bought a new belt...
style la...
lol..
went home arnd 11.30pm...
mon sent me home...
he's nice...
patient enuf 2 hear me out n lent mi a shoulder 2 cry on..
haiz..
moving on...
later at 10am meeting amru..
-smiles-
going to d zoo..
lol..
cnfirm happening..
hahaha...
hope to have fun with him...
haha...
people asked mi abt him 2dae..
told then itz all over..
they were shocked..
expected..
-so much 4 my happy ending-
9:34 PM Y
Post title : dAmNEd lOve
♥ You'll never know the real me.
i guess it wasnt meant to be...
i guess i deserve it..
we broke up AGAIN...
on d 6th..
which was yest...
he gave me a letter...
innitiating a break up..
saying tat he will always love me...
juz tat we cannot b 2gether animore..
cuz his heart is with sum1 else..
he took me back cuz he pity me!!!!!
WTF???
PITY??
itz like i soo dun nid this..
pity??..
i have ma own set of admirers sia..
i have moved on sia..
y did he come back juz 2 destroy it again??
i guess it was revenge..
i guess he was not happy..
i guess he gave me back wat i gave him..
he told me he wldnt take revenge...
all lies..
i noe all d mistakes tat i did to him..
he din have to do this to me..
now i have to try to MOVE on again...
thk god amru's still here 4 me...
goin out with him this sat..
2dae goin town with maya n yani...
they promised 2 company mi n lyn mi 2dae..
-syg krg-
no comments abt wat i feeling..
let time heal everything..
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
10:05 PM Y
Post title :
♥ You'll never know the real me.
im BACK with him....im like soooo HAPPY!!!!I wanna SHOUT!!!!!!*sCrEaMz!!!!!!*****we got back together on d 3rd of april...everybody was SOOO shocked sia...-lolz-we r soo gonna werk things out..i want him 2 trust me back..no MORE nonsense frm me!!!*big smiles*love him!!!i hope things will b juz like how it used to b...take things slow...i'll prove to him...-hugs-ya n ain...ma blog wont b pedih2 animore la..cuz i gt wat i've always wanted back...haha....so does tat mean tat his mine forever?lol
Saturday, April 01, 2006
9:10 PM Y
Post title : sad,shocked!!
♥ You'll never know the real me.
im like still awake..
itz like 5am in da morn..
ijal was under ma blk arnd 2am..
called mi juz to sae he miss mi...
was msn-ing wih him....
like normal when things suddenly get mixed up...
hw wanted me back...
i asked him whether he is serious abt this..
he told me he was...
then i sae i scared he will like give me back wat i gave him...
in another words,"bastard me back".....
then he gt angry..
said itwas "menghampakan"..
n told mi 2 forget it..
then he log off...
m i supposed 2 b sad?...
laugh?..
cry?...
y m i in this state ?of confusion?...
do i still love him..?
y m i hesitating?....
-sigh-
3:45 PM Y
Post title :
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Something happened today...ijal called me...we talked..abt things n mistakes tat were made...before n aft we broke off.....i told him all tatz in ma heart..he told mi his...n i noe no matter wat..we both will cherish wat we had b4..the love..the days when we were...TOO LOST IN each other...i miss him..seriously do..n he missed me too..but we both know things will not get back like last time..learning frm my mistakes,i find it hard to accept..even up till now..i run away frm everything..things tat will remind me of him...we ended d conversation hoping we wld b able to c each other again....i went to werk...tired...then arnd 7 plus,yani told mi tat ijal was infront..asking 4 me...only god knows how happy i was at tat moment..i went up to him..he looked different..he put back his old2 piercing..he still looks fine to me...he gave me a small paper bag...filled with lyrics with a whole lot of meanings...told him i was bz n mayb we cld mit aft werk..he just smiled..he did mit mi..he waited 4 mi..d same place he used to wait 4 mi..i felt like crying...cuz i missed d old days when we were together..then we go civic...alot of things had chg..loco have chg partner...new pple in our old grp...i sat down..feeling out of place..but ijal made mi feel better..we listen to my MP3 like wat we used to do..n he lemme listen 2 our song.."too lost in you" by sugababes..then he looked at me..d wae he used to look...i turned away..then we went to civic garden..spent time juz d two off us...showed him tat i kept all of his msgs..frm d dae he knew me,till d dae tat we became lovers,n till d dae tat we were no longer together..all d pictures...everything is still there..i knew he still love me..the wae he looked at mi...
he sent me home soon aft tat...he kissed me...i was shocked..pleased..i miss his kisses..he held my hand..n we walk...juz like how it used to b...all d jokes abt crossing d road..everything..we sat down to talk.. like how it used to b everytime he sent me home..we were reminded of wat happened d dae we broke up..pushing it all away..he told mi tat he missed me..keep repeating it...then he kissed me...longer then it shld b...'then i pulled away..saying tat i need to go home..i know that if i stayed there longer,i wld cry..he wanted to take pictures..we did...
then i went home...he hugged mi 1 last time..kissed my forehead...while giving me a sad smile...i told him tat i noe he still love me...then d doors to d lift closed...his eyes locked in mine...then i walked away...in ma room...reading the lyrics tat he gave me..it saddened me...he wrote me d lyric to d song tat he used to sing to me every nite..when we were still together.."tentang kita" by peterpan..then d other two were different lyrics..meaningful as i know tat he used the lyrics to tell me how he felt..n i understood the hidden meaning...i was so stupid to do wat i did to him...
