Tuesday, September 19, 2006
3:35 AM Y
Post title : what hurts the most..
♥ You'll never know the real me.
no more school fer me..can i really go on?..everybody i know was so proud when i entered poly..now ive let them down..especially ma parents..i can c how down n disappointed they were...its all ma fault..i regreted it a lil too late..i hurt ma pride..ma ego..maself..ma parents..ma bf...ma siblings..now i have really lost ma self-confidence..the day i found out i was not schling animore n then had a big fite with HIM,i just broke down in the middle of the road in the middle of the nite..nowadays..every single thing that pple say to me that doesnt seem rite 2 me can make me angry..i think ma bf can b the witness...i cant help it..i feel so useless...that pple wld leave me becuz i was so stupid..i can pretend..but at the end of the day..im still trying to get over the fact that im nt schling animore..trying to assure maself that i can make it...trying to make maself understand...how can i make other pple understand how i feel..if i maself cant understand?should i just run away..?or face all that i have to?sometimes its just easier to run...ps:happy birthday to ain n aisha.. i din forget... i hope u guys understand.. *hugs*
