Saturday, April 01, 2006
3:45 PM Y
Post title :
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Something happened today...ijal called me...we talked..abt things n mistakes tat were made...before n aft we broke off.....i told him all tatz in ma heart..he told mi his...n i noe no matter wat..we both will cherish wat we had b4..the love..the days when we were...TOO LOST IN each other...i miss him..seriously do..n he missed me too..but we both know things will not get back like last time..learning frm my mistakes,i find it hard to accept..even up till now..i run away frm everything..things tat will remind me of him...we ended d conversation hoping we wld b able to c each other again....i went to werk...tired...then arnd 7 plus,yani told mi tat ijal was infront..asking 4 me...only god knows how happy i was at tat moment..i went up to him..he looked different..he put back his old2 piercing..he still looks fine to me...he gave me a small paper bag...filled with lyrics with a whole lot of meanings...told him i was bz n mayb we cld mit aft werk..he just smiled..he did mit mi..he waited 4 mi..d same place he used to wait 4 mi..i felt like crying...cuz i missed d old days when we were together..then we go civic...alot of things had chg..loco have chg partner...new pple in our old grp...i sat down..feeling out of place..but ijal made mi feel better..we listen to my MP3 like wat we used to do..n he lemme listen 2 our song.."too lost in you" by sugababes..then he looked at me..d wae he used to look...i turned away..then we went to civic garden..spent time juz d two off us...showed him tat i kept all of his msgs..frm d dae he knew me,till d dae tat we became lovers,n till d dae tat we were no longer together..all d pictures...everything is still there..i knew he still love me..the wae he looked at mi...
he sent me home soon aft tat...he kissed me...i was shocked..pleased..i miss his kisses..he held my hand..n we walk...juz like how it used to b...all d jokes abt crossing d road..everything..we sat down to talk.. like how it used to b everytime he sent me home..we were reminded of wat happened d dae we broke up..pushing it all away..he told mi tat he missed me..keep repeating it...then he kissed me...longer then it shld b...'then i pulled away..saying tat i need to go home..i know that if i stayed there longer,i wld cry..he wanted to take pictures..we did...
then i went home...he hugged mi 1 last time..kissed my forehead...while giving me a sad smile...i told him tat i noe he still love me...then d doors to d lift closed...his eyes locked in mine...then i walked away...in ma room...reading the lyrics tat he gave me..it saddened me...he wrote me d lyric to d song tat he used to sing to me every nite..when we were still together.."tentang kita" by peterpan..then d other two were different lyrics..meaningful as i know tat he used the lyrics to tell me how he felt..n i understood the hidden meaning...i was so stupid to do wat i did to him...
